Its way too long since I last posted something on my blog and trust me the irregularity just doesn't make me feel good at all.

There are way too many reasons for not being a regular here, laziness being the number 1. But its a new year and a new beginning and I have made one new year resolution i.e. be regular on this space ( i know its almost 2 months since the new year started)..

The beginning to the new year was great as I was in London with My BFF and trust me there is nothing else I would want in this world other than spending time with her. It was my 1st white Christmas and I must say it was all worth it. I always wanted to make a trip without getting any monetary help from parents and this was it. I have one more thing ticked off from my ' THINGS TO DO' list and it feels great. The trip will need a separate post altogether, so here I promise that my next one is going to be about my trip :)

a funny thing called LOVE

Love doesn't make the world go ‘round. Love is what makes the ride worthwhile.

No matter who you are, where you are, with you are,

you just cant escape this thing called love..

Its addictive, its contagious, its funny, it can get you angry, it could change you to someone you never were, it could make your world go round!

Before writing this post I googled 'love' and found a thousand definitions and meanings of love, none of which were true or may I say apt!

A million things pop up in our head every time someone mentions the word Love- from flowers to perfumes to chocolates, but, what about the feelings and emotions associated with this word?

What about all the nights you spend crying, thinking whether this will work out, whether this is worth it?

A colleague of mine broke up a couple of months back, but still cant seem to get over the girl in spite of being told a million times by her that she just needs to be left alone and doesn't need him. Now to make things worse they have common friends and every time he goes out with them he is bombarded with questions about her absence as none of them knew that they were a couple!

What I hate the most about love is that sometimes people tend to forget themselves when they are in love. I mean why the hell would you let go of your individuality, your friends, your beliefs, your everything just for that one person? Is it really worth it? I know our in love, but love doesnt demand you to do insane things 365 days a year right!

I think love is a state of mind rather than a feeling, coz if it were a feeling then people would never fall apart in love! Relationships would never go sour, 2 people who seemed crazy in love with each other would never cringe at the mention of the other ones name.

Yes I agree some people are just out there to have fun and to move on, but while your at it, pls DONT call it "LOVE".

Looking back, I have this to regret, that too often when I loved, I did not say so when it mattered the most!

But thankfully I have learnt from my mistakes and dont shy away from expressing myself anymore :)

Call its bad judgement or a rushed decision, but alot of us are in relationship only coz we think that we couldnt get a better person than the one we are with. Our sense of insecurity is camouflaged into Love and we waste alot of time being in Denial about the same. Learn to get what you like, or you will be forced to like what you get! And I am sure that you will like to be loved not to love only!

Memories

First rains in the city invariably get a smile on the faces of people, as its an end of the harsh summers and close to 40 degree temperatures.



Yes we got the first showers of the season in the city today!!



Now all those people who know me also know how much I detest the rains, no not coz I ain't a romantic person, but i strongly believe that the city is never equipped to face the rains. Am sure alot of people would agree with me. Who can forget 26th July? I remember being abused by my friends for not carrying an umbrella yet again. Now this is another thing about me, no matter how much its raining when I leave the house I will never ever carry an umbrella or a raincoat. I just don't get the concept as you are either ways going to get wet.



As a kid I always preferred summer's over the rains as the onset of rains meant end of play, end of mangoes and getting back to school, which I never liked. The smell of the first rains always brings those memories running back to my head. Its been 6 years since I passed out of school but every single monsoon reminds me of "those days" when waking up at 7 was late, when you had to ask for permission before drinking water or before visiting the loo and carrying bags that were twice my own size. I always wanted a pair of gumboots in school (which I never got till date). I don't know what was my fascination for them but I remember having huge arguments at home just get that one pair of shoes.



I don't know if this year is going to be any different and if I will still cringe my nose every time I have to get out in the rains, but am keeping my fingers crossed and just hoping that this year at least the city's drainage system lives is efficient coz I don't want to be wading back home in knee deep water.

iRoNy!!

Irony because in my previous post I mentioned how fabulous the last year was and how I wished that the coming year would be as good (if not better.)

Have been away from blogging since the past 3 months, not because there wasn't much to talk about or there wasn't anything interesting worth Blogging!!

From getting my First Car (finally), to the Magazine I worked for since the past One and a Half years Shutting down suddenly, to the endless wait by the phone to get interview calls, to fights with everyone around. Its all being happening so quickly that I really don't know what I should ponder about and what should just be accepted and left the way it is.

Ok so here it goes 2 months in flash back mode-

9th January 2009- I love cars and have always wanted one since I was a kid..so I got my 1st car on the 9th of January..pushed the delivery date by 3 days coz of dads belief in number 9.. but the wait was worth it as I just don't seem to get enough of driving around in the city. But it also meant spending huge amounts of money on Petrol (which I still pay for.) I wouldn't trade it back for anything else in the world

21st January 2009- I turned 22 and the whole marriage talk from mum and dad was officially going to kill me, but apart from that it was quite a memorable birthday :)

Got a huge surprise in the night, have never cut 2 cakes in one single night (am so not a birthday person), morning started with a visit to the gurudwara and then the day was just fabulous with good food and great company. Got a very thoughtful gift and an expensive one too :P

Just was a little upset at not having got a call from my best friend until 2 p.m (generally she is the 1st one to call).

February 2009- Now this was probably the worst months of my life in a long time to come ( i hope.) The organisation just decided to shut down the Magazine one fine day and on one fine Monday morning we were told to look for other options as "we ain't going to come out with any issue henceforth." So we basically shut shop. The timing was so bad. Me and a colleague got a much awaited raise from February onwards which quite obviously a false promise made to us and wasn't lived up to. So we were stuck at a point where we just had to go but we didn't know where to go or what to do next. None of us saw it coming and the anger in all of us and the hatred was just inexplicable. How could they just wake up one Monday morning and tell us THIS IS IT.

Well I could go on and on about this and how badly the whole situation was handled, but guess I don't want to give it so much importance anymore.

Recession Recession Recession every news paper, every channel, every person had only this one word to talk about. Reading about companies shutting down, people being sacked, salaried being cut is a different story and experiencing all this at your 1st job is a new level altogether. I have realised that whenever we read something unpleasant in the newspapers we just take it for granted that something like this would never happen to me. I too had taken this recession shit really lightly and thought of it as a brilliant escape route for all the advertisers who didn't want to advertise. Little did I know that my life was going to take a 360 degree turn coz of this one Friggin word

The good thing that this whole situation bought with it was that I finally put up my resume online and started going for interviews which I had been planning in my mind since the past couple of months. So all in all February was the EVIL month :P

End of February bought with it a set of interviews some good some long and some just a cakewalk. I interviewed at 3 places out of which I had my eyes on this one particular job where I had a 2 hour long interview with the head of Marketing. The job was exactly what I was looking for, what I exactly wanted and thought would being out the best in me. Its been a month now since I gave that 2 hour long interview and 3 meetings later I still don't know if I got through :(

Nonetheless its been quite a roller coaster for me as I hadn't plan for it like this.

Now I too have my own recession story for my Kids :P

nEw bEginniNg

8 hours away from a new year, a new beginning.

Was just talking to a close friend about how the year (2008) has been for me and I surprised myself completely when I said " It's been good for me, no complaints!!"

In retrospect, it honestly has been a year full of surprises. So much has changed in me and the people around me, a 360 degree change. Not that I didn't have me "down and out" moments in 2008, but its the outlook and the perspective that has changed.

2008 too bought with it a considerable amount of downers, but for a change the good things are over shadowing the bad ones in my life. Yes I have had my share of Failures and downfalls, relationships gone sour (and how), fights, misunderstandings,,but thankfully all this has changed my perspective towards life in a positive way and I am not looking back at the year with sorrow and all things lost. Instead, Iam look back and see all the good things and the Superb people and memories that form a part of this positive outlook. Every single loss in 2008 made me look at life in a different light.

But my friend pointed out that perhaps 2008 has been one of the worst years for alot of people around me and the world on the whole. Recession, Terror Attacks, Financial slowdown of the world economy et al.

2009 is going to be better for sure, all we need is a fresh start at this point.

8 hours away from the new year I hope that 2009 brings with it alot of good luck and lots of love for all my friends :P

Sadly one thing that has remained constant for all the 31st's of my life is that I am going to be home and bring in the new year with the remote in my hand. Hope at least this changes next year atleast :), but if it doesn't then no complaints.

Wish you all A verY haPPy new Year 2009!!!