Wish

sometimes i wish i could turn back time..
sometimes i wish i could undo certain things i wasnt suppose to do..
sometimes i wish i thought about a decision well..before going ahead with it..
sometimes i wish i never loved some people in life whom iam addicted to right now..
sometimes i wish i could tell someone that it hurts..
sometimes i wish i wasnt so impulsive..
sometimes i wish i could cry like a baby..
sometimes i wish i could have a shoulder to cry on..
sometimes i wish i could get a beary hug when iam low..
sometimes i wish i could disappear..
sometimes i wish i could get that someone out of my life..
sometimes i wish i could express myself better..
sometimes i wish i would value the people who value me..

its not that i regret things..
its not that i want to erase somethings from the pages of my life..
not among those who would go back in time..and retrospect.. cause i inevitably land up remembering the bad times..
but just that when you think about how it has been for you till now..
how life has gone..how you have lived..
you do want to make an effort to improve yourself and the way you have been living..



its all in our hands at the end of the day..
its how we want it to be..
but guess we ignore this and blame it on circumstances or the other person..