World Hold On, Got a Message for the Future

Have loved and have been Hurt..I'm sure all of us have gone through this phase.

Sometimes your at the receiving and the other times your a little lucky to be at the giving end. What I have learnt through these past couple of days is that no matter what you say, no matter what you do, no matter how deeply you love, if its not meant for you, it wont happen. Ya I may look like a coward to blame it on destiny, but is there much you can do after you have done it all?? You love, you lose, you sulk, you cry, you try, and finally you give up..not with the hope of getting that person back in your life, but with the hope that you never love someone else with that much intensity. Looking around me I feel like I have been living in the past.

Life has become so fast, that people find it no more difficult to move on. The other day we had a shoot with Kareena Kapoor for the cover and we had a surprise visitor yeah yeah you got it right it was Saif indeed. No doubt that both of them are too much in love with each other (that's what the picture says) but what surprises me is that both these have just recently split with their respective partners and within no span of time they are with someone else.

I mean how can you just forget the past and move so fast? Don't the memories haunt you? Don't the feelings count? Is it all about gratification, no matter where it comes from? Just because you start getting more TLC from someone else who is new in your life, you forget the old people who have been there for you and with you through thick and thin?

Where does our reasoning go? If someone is new, you are bound to get more attention from there but for how long, and is that temporary attention worth the relationships that are at stake? This colleague has been seeing this guy for the past 3 years and has feelings for someone else, who gives her more attention and showers her with the choicest compliments and blah, so she plans to dumb the old boy friend and go out with this New Guy. Heard this today morning and it stunned me beyond words. I mean if you say you "Love" someone, then how can you think of some third person just because you are spoken to in the nicest way, are words all that is required to take you away from the who probably might love you more but might not have the "right words" to sweep you off your feet for the moment?

I guess the trend is of fast moving relationships and instant Gratification right now which I have to get attuned to as the world is full of Tough people who don't let their hearts do the talking!!!

Its been a whirlwind 2 weeks for me. Haven't had the time to do anything for myself.

So i decided to take a break on Wednesday. Had a 2 hour gap between 2 lectures, in which i generally go to office to work, so i chilled with a close friend at a coffee.

It had been days since I had random conversations with anyone and everyone. That day i just realised how cut off I have been with everyone around me. In those two hours I for the first time in so many days spoke about what has been troubling me, what has been on my mind. I told this friend that I think Iam going to lose out on people as i really don't talk anymore and to add to that I never ever managed to express myself to anyone. We got talking about relationships and I realised that one bad relationship is all it took for me to get into a shell.

Hope this phase passes soon as i really want to get back to Loving myself.

woof!!!

Stuttering teeth, People riding with Gloves, Socks becoming one of the most sought after piece of cloth, blankets, piping hot coffee, ciggies, rickshaw walas in taliban attire (face half covered), three layers of clothing, heater replacing a/c in cars, Lazziness, sleepiness, pull overs, shawls, shivering, bon fires, empty roads, people travelling in buses with their windows shut, blue feet, frozen hands, boots, garam chai, people enjoying the weather at the sea face, cold water running through the tap, empty gym, 8.5°c temperature in Aamchi Mumbai!!

Unbelievable.......

I'am Loving the weather in Mumbai right now, hope we get to enjoy it for a wee bit longer!!!

Office Office

People in office can be such retards at times..
that you can't stop laughing at them..

Last week a colleague got a goft voucher for MAC worth Rs.3000 and she refused to take it!!
Ahem!! *smirks*
First she thougth that we were pulling her leg as the voucher was actually a Diwali Voucher, which everyone got during Diwali and she hadn't got it (wonder y).
She refused to take it and told me that I needed to get a life and stop foooling around so much..
As usual i wasn't even a part of this whole scene, but she still gave me a piece of her mind!!
Since she refused to take it and was giving back to us, Me and my other Colleague had already decided what we are going to get with her voucher.
Wonder how and why she finally got conviced that it was not a joke and she could go shop in MAC for cosmetics worth 3k!! Guess she went to confirm it after office :)
this was not the end of it all, she then called my boss and asked her if this was not fake and why she got her Diwali Voucher after Christmas??? hahahahahahahahahha..I almost fell off the chair looking at her face..
Damn, just missed out on the stuff from MAC!!

I don't know why but this colleague just thinks that I am the biggest prankster on the face of this earth, even though I haven't pulled a fast one on her!!
Such is Life!!!