Holi

This one day brings back so many memories that always bring a Smile on my face,

When everyone around me used to run away and not want to be soaked in colour, I went ahead and asked people to apply colour, and since I was such a sport my friends didn't quite like it as they didn't have to run behind me or maybe there was no empty space left for them to apply colour.

The picture says it all, it was clicked last year and my mum refused to take me in the house till I didn't get some of the colour out

Always got a stare from Mum on coming back home, feel like an untouchable, not get recognised (yeah mum is funny).

Its the same ritual every year, soak each other in colour and water, play with random people walking in and out of our building et al.

This year though it was a little different as It took me a good 2 hours to get the colour out, and at the end of 2 hours Iam still pink. Everytime I washed my hair there was a different shade of colour coming out and it freaked me to no extent as i knew it that i might have to spend the rest half of the day in the bathroom.

Every year I swear to myself that this is it, no more Holi for me, what a pain it is to get the colour out blah blah blah.

But its a different story when Holi is around the corner.

All those people who don't play Holi, well all i want to say is

"Its ok to be dirty once in a while,

your mssing out on alot fun."

Its the last time!!!

For the First time I am not happy after a dreaded project being over,

For the first time I wasn't happy to leave college after 6 long hours of sitting and waiting and praying that it goes well,

For the first time I wanted to be questioned more,

For the first time I wanted to sit in class forever and do nothing,

For the first time I loved all the dim wits of my class,

For the first time I loved my Professor who has been giving us nightmares,

For the first time I loved the grilling session,

For the First time I didn't want to Leave college,

For the First time in almost 6months I didn't abuse Vara for wasting my Sunday,

For the First time I didn't want to come back home,

For the First time I wanted to chill in class and not go out on the streets of linking road,

All this for the First time, maybe because its the last time!!

No more group projects, no more vivas,

No more anything, no more Blah Blah

The weirdness of life struck me the most yesterday.

my best friend got her visa application done yesterday and got a student visa valid till 2010, and I spoke to her as soon as she got it in her hand. Could hear the excitement in her voice or probably it was relief as she would have been in a mess if she wouldn't have got that Visa.

After talking to her I realised that I ain't happy for her, CZ now it meant that she wont be coming back, Knew it deep down that she ain't coming back, but, but, but still had a tinge of hope.
The whole feeling just made my heart sink and for a moment the "How sick can you be" thought crossed my mind as I was sulking instead of being happy for her.

Yeah I know its alright to feel like this to some extent, but the fact that sometimes you become so selfish and cant think beyond your happiness, surprises me. You try to smile through all of this just to make sure the other person doesn't misunderstand this feeling.

Some one's reason for celebration can be your reason to cry.
It feels weird!!!!

Tagged by Lunacy

Have had a bad beginning to the day, majorly goofed up in office yesterday,
so thought doing this tag by Miss Lunacy might just help...

Ten Things You Wish You Could Say To People Right Now (but cant/dont)
1) Wish I could give up on You
2) No I am not running a fortune 500 business, but I am still Busy
3) Get over with it
4) NO
5) Get a Life dude
6) You are Useless and that is what is making you so irritable
7) Stop Honking
8) Dont go back
9) I Love my life without You
10) NO (yeah i know i repeated it, for effect)

Nine Unknown Things About Yourself :
1) I hate people who suffer from Bad table Manners, Can't stand it when people eat and talk at the same time.
2) Have a Fetish for fingers ;)
(my post on this one got me random remarks and looks from everyone)
3) I love driving and would not mind dying in a car accident, loooowwwwee cars.
4) I Love my best friend with all my heart, can do anything for her :)
5) People who know it all, turn me on.
6) I add up the numbers on a number plate behind cars while travelling.
7) Its too difficult for me to ask someone to stop talking to me.
8) I want to go to London to work.
9) I love to see the surprised look on people's face.

Eight Ways To Win Your Heart
1) A long drive with good music.
2) Be thoughtful.
3) Listening to me without interrupting.
4) Make me laugh.
5) Gift me a good watch (yeah I am a little materialistic)
6) Beautiful eyes.
7) Be good at at least one Sport.
8) Work out in the gym with me.

Seven Things That Cross Your Mind A Lot
1) Will I ever make it Big
2) Marriage (no I don't want to get married that's why the thought crosses my mind often)
3) Ankita
4) Are you sure
5) I know you are lying
6) Will I ever own a Car of my own
7) What after this!!!!!!

Six Things You Regret
1) Not giving up on certain relationships
2) Giving up on certain relationships
3) Not clicking enough pictures when I was a Kid
4) Failing to take up Badminton as an alternate career
5) Not being focused
6) Time wasted in the 12Th standard

Five Turn-Off’s
1) Bad breath
2) Dirty Nails
3) Bad communication Skills
4) Lack of sense of Humour
5) Not brushing your teeth before going to Bed

Four Turn-On's
1) Knowledge
2) Driving Sense
3) Cute Smile
4) Eyes

Three Things You Want To Do Before You Die ( have written a post on this before but nonetheless)
1) Travel the world
2) Gift my Parents a House
3) Date a foreigner

Two Smileys that Describe You
;) :S

One Confession
I have no clue what I want to do in Life, I am not sorted at all contrary to popular belief.

I already feel better at the end of this, Now I better get Back to work.

World Hold On, Got a Message for the Future

Have loved and have been Hurt..I'm sure all of us have gone through this phase.

Sometimes your at the receiving and the other times your a little lucky to be at the giving end. What I have learnt through these past couple of days is that no matter what you say, no matter what you do, no matter how deeply you love, if its not meant for you, it wont happen. Ya I may look like a coward to blame it on destiny, but is there much you can do after you have done it all?? You love, you lose, you sulk, you cry, you try, and finally you give up..not with the hope of getting that person back in your life, but with the hope that you never love someone else with that much intensity. Looking around me I feel like I have been living in the past.

Life has become so fast, that people find it no more difficult to move on. The other day we had a shoot with Kareena Kapoor for the cover and we had a surprise visitor yeah yeah you got it right it was Saif indeed. No doubt that both of them are too much in love with each other (that's what the picture says) but what surprises me is that both these have just recently split with their respective partners and within no span of time they are with someone else.

I mean how can you just forget the past and move so fast? Don't the memories haunt you? Don't the feelings count? Is it all about gratification, no matter where it comes from? Just because you start getting more TLC from someone else who is new in your life, you forget the old people who have been there for you and with you through thick and thin?

Where does our reasoning go? If someone is new, you are bound to get more attention from there but for how long, and is that temporary attention worth the relationships that are at stake? This colleague has been seeing this guy for the past 3 years and has feelings for someone else, who gives her more attention and showers her with the choicest compliments and blah, so she plans to dumb the old boy friend and go out with this New Guy. Heard this today morning and it stunned me beyond words. I mean if you say you "Love" someone, then how can you think of some third person just because you are spoken to in the nicest way, are words all that is required to take you away from the who probably might love you more but might not have the "right words" to sweep you off your feet for the moment?

I guess the trend is of fast moving relationships and instant Gratification right now which I have to get attuned to as the world is full of Tough people who don't let their hearts do the talking!!!