fAtE

whY do we always run behind people we are never going to be with,
people whom we are never going get no matter what, no matter how happy both will be at the end of it with each other..
why are somethings not meant to be..
some people not meant to be with each other..not matter how much care and love exists..no matter what they think, no matter how pUrfect things between them seem..
I guess life isn't meant to be perfect!!!
I hope that the one I Love knows that I want to be there!!!forever.
I have learnt that Just love and care isn't enough, it something more than that, what more??well i don't know,, trying to figure out.
its not about the wants and needs, its about fate, yeah it at all boils down to that 4 letter word.
And the feeling of wanting to be with someone, but deep down knowing it that "this ain't going to work out" can kill you from within.
It can push you to the limits and in your quest to change your destiny and FatE you might just lose it all, lose yourself.
At the end of the dAy, is it worth it??
I know I want to be with the one I love with all I can, but as I said,
Love is not enough, it takes a little more than that SADLY!!!!!

u ScreAm, i ScreAm, we All screAm for icE creAm

God made Women,

God made Men,

and then God Made Ice Cream.

I am sure all of us have been in love with Ice Cream at some point in our life. At a recent Family function the whole Ice Cream funda sturck me, that one scoop of ice cream people don't want to let go off. No matter what age you are, you stick to your Ice Cream and eat it as if the last one you ever going to get. Every bite we take is relished to the core. But I must say everyone has Ice cream in their Own sweet Way.

Have you noticed how quite people go while having an Ice cream. There is an invisible DO NOT DISTURB sign that they have on their face.

I have been loyal to my Chocolate Ice Cream. The flavour doesnt change no matter what season or reason.

I wish someday they come up with an ice cream that never melts :)

Just when life seemed to get sorted out and everything seemed to fall into place..
It hasnt been a great time for me since september '07, havent spoken much about it coz I didnt know what to do about it, something i have never spoken about and probably never will..
Got it sorted (somewhat) sometime and since then life has bee great,
got a job at a time when everyone around me was chilling and enjoying the last couple of weeks in college!! No doubt it was tough handling college, projects, studies, office at the same time, but I was more than glad to be multi tasking.
But guess I am running out of patience, have an annoying colleague whom I had learnt to deal with and give a deaf ear to, Cant do it anymore..
she is at my head and looks like she is waiting for one fault to f**k my happiness..
it just shows,,the wicked pleasure she gets when I goof up, when I mess it,,the smallest mistake the smallest step I take is looked after and reported. It has like having a Guardian devil behind me all the time. Its not that its just me, She has an issue with everything and everyone in office which amuses all of us to no end. Has fought with everyone from the peon to the boss, walks and talks as if we are all here as her slaves and its her pops office. wonder how such people make it so far in life??
I am all saturated at the end of the day, trying to keep pace with her moves, trying to make sure that I don't give her an opportunity to finger me, but na it just doesn't work, I am tired with this Cat and Mouse game, I am tired of it all. Guess I need a break, Guess this is not where I belong.
What amuses me is the sense of insecurity some people and how it makes them function. How it affects their over all behaviour with everyone just to stay ahead of them all they want to put them down.
And what amuses me even more is the fact that I always manage to have such a person around me, and inspite of not getting in the way of anyone's work and working in the wrong way and put someone down I always face this.
I have no clue of what to do, if I quit I know I will let her have way cause thats what she wants at the end of the day, but I cant take it anymore either. I have no clue what I want to do once I am out of this place but I know one thing straight for the moment, that I aint here to take shit nor do I intend to further.
Have spoken to my boss sometime back after I walked on this colleague after being accused of not being worthy enough and blah blah, inspite of working my ass off and all my boss had to say was "ignore her as she is a piece of shit."
Guess I cant anymore, guess I will just abuse her and leave one day.
I pray that I get my Patience back to handle the job and the Bitch at the job place.

Time to Celebrate!!

It is probably the last time alot of us will be studying studying..

I was one of them till last week or something..

but the whole studying in these 2 weeks has made me realise that I do in fact enjoy studying alot..

yeah you may say that it took me 15 long years to realise this, but the whole feeling of "wow I am done with this" doesn't come to me!!!!

Never thought I would want to study ahead, was always of the opinion that will be a graduate and get to work..nothing helps more than hands on experience..but nah Thank god my opinion has changed..

not that I am sorted in the head and I know what I want to study (somethings in life don't change you see)

But I know one thing..that this is not the end..in fact if I may put it in words..maybe this is the beginning!!

Beginning of a process, of a new life, new belief!!!

I probably don't know where to start and how to start, but I know now I am sure that I have to start somewhere.

Moving on!!

As i said earlier that I actually enjoyed studying this time, wasn't stressed (actually exams never stressed me). It was fun to say the least.

Mum actually had to tell me at times to take a break and chill out a bit.. guess I freaked her with my serious studying mode..

I have this habit of sittin of one place for hours in the same position, without moving an inch..

A neighbour saw me sitting in the same position for over an hour and a half and called to ask if i feel off to sleep. She couldn't get through my phone as it was off, so she asked me later if i was sleeping at the study table and she was surprised to know that I was studying, her faith has deepened in the Fact that I am weird :P

Got a piece of mind from a lot of people for keeping my phone off..yep I need undivided attention when I sit to study and a cell phone is the biggest distraction in the 21st century.

Office people refuse to get the concept and ask me how to get in touch with me then..I mean duh duh the whole point of putting my phone off is that I don't want to be reached :)

This time exams were different, the feeling was different, a lot of my friends pampered me as if I was preparing for a war, sweet nonetheless!!

The amount of craving that happens when you study is crazy, and people have actually been extremely sweet to see to it that all my demands are fulfilled no matter what day or time it is..

random demands...I want subway...i want mousse, I want ice cream..zeesh..

I Don't want exams to end cause I don't want the Princess's treatment to end :(

Just came to know my boss is out of to London and plus I have an extended weekend all thanks to the Monday being a holiday!!

yeyeyeyeyeyeyeyeye

another reason to celebrate!!!

cheers

Not made For EACH Other

I am just not made for a Subject that has numbers in it..

whether it only involves simple addition and subtraction, I am sure I will still go wrong some where..

Had Financial Management paper today and for the first time in my Educational life of 15 years I knew all the sums and formulae and the way to solve the most toughest sum possible in the book.

But whats the use of staying up till 4a.m for a week and a half practicing these god forsaken sums?

I still had to go wrong..I guess it was the most easiest paper in the History of BMM (yeah OK I am Exaggerating)

Thought would get my percentage up only by scoring the most in this paper..as we all know you can a 50 on 50 in maths papers.

But I messed up and made the silliest mistake I could ever commit in a paper..

SO wanted to kick my A** for sleeping while solving the paper..

Everything was in front of me I knew-it-all but I couldn't break my phobia for maths in probably the last paper I will ever give that involves Numbers.

So wanted to kill it..

But GUESS Maths and ME are just not made FOR Each other!!!