Gandhigiri

A recent tiff at home made me realise that I ain't a person who would give back in a fight anymore.

Have stopped reacting while someone is on about something, which is ticking me off but I don't want to get back cause I have reached the point where I feel that if I become a part of this and give my side of it as well it will never end!!

Now there are Pros and Cons to everything in life (unfortunately), apart from the usual pros like the argument ending sooner than expected et al.

But on the flip side it all cramps up within me. I have absolutely stopped taking when I am upset about something or when I am really really angry.

I have realised that all the anger and negative energy gets to me in one way or the other.

Either I get red with anger, or stomach cramps up, or head starts aching till I don't get it out or maybe I just cry it out or my body heats up (yeah that happens often).

A recent spat with my mum made me realise that I have another addition to the list, I can feel all the tension in my nails. zeesh it was crazy when I realised this, I mean how random and weird could I get.

Even in office, i rarely speak up when its needed, never stand up for myself cause I feel that it might just get the whole situation dirty and messy! So I just let it be. But after repeatedly conversations about me quitting the place with my HR head, I just get one statement no matter what I say. She just says "dude f**k all of this, f**k your theory of I don't want it to be messy, just talk it out and give it back, lets see how ugly it can get."
So yeah from now I am going to give it back and stand up for myself without thinking of the consequences.
Enough of Gandhigiri, time for some Dadagiri :)

24 hOuRs

Yesterday was quite a day! There were so many things that took place in just one day that brought out different sides of me.
There were 3 things that happened and made it worth writing about.

1) The day started earlier than normal and I saw a different and beautiful side of Mumbai at 7 in the morning. So yeah breakfast was the FIRST thing that made the day wonderful! The feeling of catching up with an old friend cannot be matched with anything else. I was glad that we could still have a good time without letting the past come in our way. Oh ya and also Marine Drive is even more beautiful in the morning on a clear day.

2) I randomly got asked out at gym, and had such mixed feelings for next 2 hours. I didn't know how to react to whole situation, neither did I know how to turn him down (coz I hardly know him), nor did I know what to say :)
I was a little taken aback initially as we have only spoken twice, that too while running on the treadmill. He is bald and he carries it off so well!! zeesh don't know many people who can do that.
3) Got a call at an odd hour from a childhood friend who has never randomly called me in the middle of the night. Yeah we are close et al but it felt a little more than weird to see her name flash on my mobile screen at a bizarre time. Was a little worried before answering her call, wondering if she was OK or no. Thankfully she was alright and wanted to see me and was below my building. Went down to see her and was a little surprised to see her with her EX. I have heard loads about him and have seen her in her most vulnerable state when they broke up after dating for 5 years. They just got back in touch a couple of months back but she denies the fact that they are again in a relationship. Seeing them last night, it got my mind ticking again!

Why the hell do we get into stuff when we are smart enough to know it ain't worth the pain?

Why do we get back to the person who has caused us so much pain in the past and made us feel like shit?

So yeah, it was quite a day with a lot of feelings and thoughts running across my mind at all times.

Sometimes a lot can happen in 24 hours!!!

HK 2

Went to Disney land on Saturday, and to put the whole experience down in one word it was AWESOME.

The way things were going I thought we wouldn't be able to make it before I leave and it was a tad disappointing, but thankfully it didn't turn out that way.

Everything was so Puurfect- the company, the weather, the atmosphere, the Energy, the fun..oh my god. Loved every bit of it.

I had a bit of everything, and of course the much needed break from everything and everyone in Mumbai and Around ;)!!

Hong kong is a beautiful city, the house is Fabulous, the view from the balcony (can literally see the whole city), the weather, the Chini Kids, everything, I mean everything. Till I wasn't on the flight I couldn't believe it that I was finally going to Hong Kong after so many discussions, failed plans, arguments, Mamta dropping out. But Iam glad I made it cause I had the time of my life at the time when I needed it the most.

The day we got lost on the way back home, the random running on the streets just to cross the road while the signal is on, just sitting at the coffee shop and checking out people et al.

The big Buddha, Central (just couldn't get enough of that place), the light show one of the most fabulous things I have ever come across.

I have no more words to describe the trip.

P.S- Picturtes will be up in the next post!!

HK

I don't know where to start from..

have seen such beautiful sights and structures, don't think I am ready to go back to Mumbai yet. (yeah I still have 5 days to go)

want to make the most of it, I so needed this break, its feels wonderful!!!

yesterday R and me went to Ocean Park which is a theme park with rides et al. It also has a Panda Habitat, so all over the park there were panda memorabilia!!so wanted to get every Panda for Ankita!! zeesh..

Sat on the roller coaster and the Abyss, omg I cant get over the Abyss, it was one of the most amazing things I ever sat on. Have clicked a couple of pictures on it, zeesh..loved it..

It takes you up almost 10 floors and then drops down at racing speed, the adrenaline rush was worth it.

The look on the Faces of people waiting in line for their turn was worth it ;P

till the end moment I was wondering if I want to do this and if I will survive :)

well I did and enjoyed it the Core.