Miss You!!

Love is such a funny little thing..it makes your whole world go round..

i believe that we all love very few people in life..the remaining others we "CARE" for..the few people we love could be a friend, best friend, parents, boyfriend/girlfriend..this one relationship means the whole world to us and all our life ka fundas are based on this one damn relationship..oh ya and when you are going through a tough time in this relationship then god bless the people around you..

To me This whole love relationship was with my best friend..i don't know how much i loved her but i know one thing for sure that i loved her with all i could..nothing or no one else mattered so much to me..the feeling was mutual..she loved me too..in life you come across certain people whom you feel like pampering and going out of your way to make them feel loved..she was someone i could never say NO to..

but it hurts alot when this one relationship goes hay wire cause of whatever reasons..my whole life went for a toss when we fought or just simply fell apart..we fought often and most of the times for very stupid reasons..there were a zillion times when we decided that this was it we cant anymore of each other..but it never really happened..'these fights' and 'those couple of days' away made us realise that we are an integral part of each others life..

she is away in London so now if we do fight..our phone bills go for a toss cause we need to get things back on track..there was a time when i called London and never had the balance to call people in Mumbai..

my friends found this whole relationship funny and complicated..lol..i also heard things like 'oh you guys are like a couple.' Loved to take that as a compliment, but it also showed that people have such a one track mind..

it hasn't been great between us since October for various reasons..and for the first time since 8 years i get this feeling that this is it!! I don't know if we are going to be the same, but i know one thing for sure..that i didn't leave a stone unturned..yeah it does hurt even now but i don't think there is much i can do..its like letting go of a part of me, i cant take the hurt..
there are many things unsaid and many promises broken..all that held the relationship together was the love that we had for each other..i have come to a phase where i have forgiven but the problem lies with forgetting..i just cant forget things..its always been a problem with me..forgiving comes easily but forgetting..naaah!!!

i do pray that we talk it out this time around as well and things get back to normal..but the distance is spoiling it even more..i wish we could be the same cause i really miss you and i cant stop loving you!!

Life is full of broken dreams and unkept promises!!